Sunday, September 11, 2011

The Gloom of Yesterday

Many times, things go wrong just like that. Not any particular reason. But just like that. Not that your life has exceptionally been in order for this to come as a shock. But the pattern in which it unspools itself is pretty frightening. Anything you touch goes wrong. Just like that. Anything you get into is a blow on your face. Just like that. In those times, you may actually believe that Supreme Power does really exist, even if you are an atheist. Not because you have experienced many magical moments in your life. But the chaos in your life is so overpowering that you are very sure it is not possible without the intervention of any Supreme Power. How else can you reason out such perfectly choreographed messy situations in your life, as though it was a part of a well edited movie with taut screenplay?
And the fact that few people you look up to live far across the oceans does not help. And when the few others you have always relied upon for support are dealing with a lot themselves, you know this only will make it worse for them. So you keep it to yourself. But hope for a tomorrow. A Tomorrow that will bring sunshine. A Tomorrow that will boost your low self-esteem. A Tomorrow that may help you laugh at the chaotic and gloomy Yesterday. A Tomorrow filled with a bit of happiness and a bit of energy. At least, a Tomorrow that is not as gloomy as the Yesterday.